I was a shadow of myself, a complete mess for over a year, i attended therapy sessions for months on end but i couldn’t let coker go.
It seemed like God was out to get to me. I hated my life, I felt useless, Chief’s children had relocated and we talked sparingly on the phone, Alice’s sister was quite accepting, she consoled me and asked me to move on with my life, but how do you do that in situations like this.
I delved into alcohol, all types, even snorted a few times, it was too strong for me so i stuck with my alcohol.
I employed a driver to drive me, because I was always too wasted to go ro work.
On this faithful day, John my BM called me to his office:
“Ada, you have to move on, i am talking to you as a friend, look at you, you look 10 years older than your real age. God gives and he takes, you have to move on. I know you are trying your best to put up this facade ada, but i know the real you. Move on, start afresh, even Chief Coker wanted that for you”
I was crying as he spoke, john gave me his handkerchief and i wiped my tears.
I nodded my head “you can have the rest of the day off, if you need to but think about what I said. Its painful to loose a loved one but what do we do, we have to carry on with life” He said
I thanked him and went to my desk, i didn’t want to go home, I was tired of drinking, i felt my liver would give up any moment.. When we closed for the day, John stopped by my desk. I am throwing a small get together on Saturday for my birthday, you are going to be there. Its an order”
I just nodded as he walked away.
You could say i was the most productive in my branch, i worked long hours and i wasn’t one to grumble. I love my job and i always volunteered to help out whenever there was an overflow of work.
My branch Manager was very close to Chief coker, seeing that he was a top customer of our bank and he had put in more funds after we started dating, even asked some of his friends to start banking with us, he told them, i was in business development and i needed to beat my target.
My branch always superseded our target because of chief and his friends. Even now that he was gone, Bayo maintained the company’s accounts with my bank and also ensured most of chief’s friends did the same.
It was the Friday after I spoke to John, i closed from work, went home and sat on my couch. I thought about my life deeply, 1 year had passed and i was a total wreck, i was merely existing, not living. John was right, I have to move on or my drinking would claim my life.
I cried for over 2 hours.
Screaming, Silently…. The tears dripping down my face…. Reminiscing of old times
My heart ached….. This has to end! I got up, packed all the bottles of wine and put them in the trash.
I clean my house thoroughly. It took me over 5 hours. The cleaning sort of gave me clarity. I showered and went to sleep.
The next day, I woke up, had a quick shower, I called my boss John and wished him a happy birthday, then i asked for his address so i could attend his birthday party
I quickly rushed to the Salon and made my hair, i had my nails painted and my faux lashes fixed. I fixed an appointment with a makeup artist to come to my place later in the evening and then went to the mall to get a gift for my boss.
When I got home, I chose a yellow bodycon mini gown, seeing the yellow made me cheer up. I put on some music and i danced for the first time in over a year… Time was 4pm, the makeup artist had arrived, by the time she was done, it was almost 5pm. I paid her and she left. I quickly put on my dress and my heels and i proceeded to drive to John’s place.
I got to John’s place at about 6:15pm, Everywhere was full, most of my colleagues had arrived and many were happy to see me, i looked beautiful and i could feel their eyes staring at me.
I saw my boss John talking with a group of friends and i walked over there “Happy birthday Sir, Wishing you Long life and plenty money” I said, smiling while offering him the gift i got for him “Thank you Ada, I appreciate this” John said
He turned to his friends and introduced me, one short one was already feasting his eyes on me like i was food. (#InmyHead – Oga Abeg, I don’t date short guys, carry your wahala go front)
We made small talk, and i excused myself, joining my colleagues and basically enjoying the evening. I felt relieved and relaxed and for a brief moment, i relegated Chief to the back of my mind. A waiter came to inquire if i would like a glass of champagne, I turned it down and asked for Chapman instead, I had had enough alcohol to last me a year.
There was so many games ongoing, i didn’t participate in any but i enjoyed watching all of them. It was a truly blissful evening. I decided to take a walk to the back of John’s house as the crowd started dispersing. He had a great place, a nice 5 bedroom duplex, tastefully furnished with a nice pool at the back. No one knew why he was unmarried and it was above our pay grade to ask.
I found a chair close to his pool and i sat down, watching the water, watching the lights dance… I closed my eyes, heaved a sigh of relief and allowed my nostrils take in as much air as my small nose could carry.
I was decluttering my mind, detoxifying my soul…. “Hey Ada, why are you all alone outside”
John said, breaking my thoughts
I shook my head, signifying no reason “Are you thinking again” – He said, squatting beside me.
No I’m not – I replied
He looked cute, his lips pink, skin chocolate, John had always been the most cutest man in our branch “you look beautiful today, I must say” – John said, looking into my eyes
I smiled and looked at john. He went to grab a chair and sat next to me. We sat down in silence and just stared at the pool together.
It was 10minutes past 11pm before i left John’s place, we had talked about everything, my family, his, John had only been in love once, She was pregnant and they decided to get married. The eve of their wedding, he found out his best friend was the father of his fiancée baby, She was in love with his friend, not John. He was devastated and obviously the wedding was called off. His ex is currently married to his best friend and he has been single ever since… I drove home in silence, i wanted to savor the new experience, to relish it. I got home, quickly had a shower and slept off.
On Sunday morning, I woke up to a text from John, thanking me for attending his birthday, I replied “Not a problem sir”. H e was after all my boss
John called me immediately, I picked up “Good morning Sir” – I said “Morning Beautiful, Hope you slept well, i just figured i didn’t even call to find out if you got home safely” John said
You could tell he was nervous, finicky about something. “I slept well, thanks for asking. I hope you did too?” – I said, in my most bid to sound as calm as possible. “Yea Yea, what are your plans for today? Remember my friend, the one wearing a red shirt yesterday, today’s his birthday. He specifically said I should invite you so I’d come pick you up by 2pm, there’s a boat to take us to the beach in Lekki”
John bellowed, it sounded more like an instruction, than an invite. The red shirt guy was the short guy. “That’s if you don’t mind” – John added
I had no plans for the day so i figured, what the heck. I might as well. “No problem Sir, 2pm it is” – I replied “Ok, good and Ada, We are not at work. My name is john” – He said and hung up.
Time was 2pm, John was in front of my house.
I wore a kente bikini, denim short and a fishnet kimono, I accessorised with anklets, long drop necklace and waist beads.
I looked like “come and fuck me”. I knew it was a bad idea, but i figured, well its just me and john, none of my colleagues were invited, so no gossip tomorrow at work.
John complimented my outfit and i could see, he was trying to keep a straight face.. In 2 days, he had seen how sexy i was, than he had ever seen in 3 years, that we worked together.
We drove to the boat club in lekki, there were other friends of John there already and he went to converse with them.
Men stared, women envied.. I was the cynosure of all eyes. I was used to it.
John would occasionally look at me and smile.
The boat ride to the beach was fun, there was music, champagne and small chops. I was beginning to loosen up, gisting with some of my new friends onboard, having a good time.
We got to the beach and the quad bikes took us to the house where the party will hold. It had a pool. Beautiful.
Music was blasting from the speakers, i danced a little, the sun was blazing hot, i had a small debate on whether to take off my shorts and get in the pool. My ass would be on full display. (#inMyHead noone ever died from staring at ass)
John was already in the house with friends, I was already in the pool, when i noticed more people coming out from the house, i smiled, i had a good body and i knew they all came out to look.
I did my music video pool getting out thingy (you swim to the edge of the pool and then get out slowly, and then squeeze the water off your hair without looking at anybody, make sure to keep your stomach taut) John was already seated close to the pool, i motioned for him to get me a towel. He went in and came back with one, instead of handing it over to me. He started drying me up.
I knew immediately he was marking his territory, men who like you do this. It was a way to tell other men to stand down, it boils down to basic animalistic instincts.
I half smiled, he dried my body, a bit afraid of touching my bum, he didn’t know how i would take it. I collected the towel from him and cleaned it myself.
After i finished drying my hair, i grabbed my fishnet kimono and draped it over my body, not like it covered much and i walked into the house. John grabbed my shorts and followed me.
When i got inside the house, i went straight to the bar and got myself a glass of wine. “Hey” – John Said, putting his hand on my lower back.
I turned around, he was too close to comfort, our lips were almost touching. He moved and came to stand beside me, hands still on my lower back. “Are you having fun” – He asked “Yea Sure” – I said, doing my best to avoid a long conversation.
John continued “hum Ada, can we talk pri…..” He was cut short by his friend, the celebrant. “My future wife, Thanks for coming” – Igho said
I smiled and said “Happy Birthday, Wish you long life and prosperity. Sorry i wasn’t able to get a gift, i had very short notice” “No, no, no, your presence alone is all the gift i need” – igho said
We all laughed.
Through out the party, you could see john was tensed, I knew what he wanted to tell me but he was my head, and I’m not so good at mixing work and pleasure.. I was comfortable switching personalities, I didn’t want anyone to look at me in the office and all they see is how i suck dick or how i take dick.. I had fun all through the party, participating in games, being loud and generally having fun. Even made some new friends, the moment people saw i was not a snub, they were drawn to my world. I had a lot to drink, a whole lot. I felt like a balloon. I didn’t want the night to come to an end.
The boats arrived and we had to leave, when we anchored in lekki, John carried me to the car, i was wasted.
We drove to my place in silence, When we got home, he helped me inside my house and when i was settled.
John got up and went home.
On monday, i woke up late and with a banging headache, I quickly showered, dried my hair and went to work. I had no make-up on.
I sat at my desk, i didn’t see John, it seemed like he was avoiding me. We didn’t see all through out that Monday.
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Tuesday, as i entered into the bank, he was talking to another staff in the banking hall
“Good morning sir” – I said, avoiding eye contact with him
“morning” He said not paying me any attention.
That was the only conversation we had that day
********** Wednesday, I went into his office to get him to sign a customer’s form, he was so formal, acting as if, he didn’t just try to kiss me over the weekend
I didn’t mind, If that’s how he wants to play it. I’m good eitherways
******* Thursday, we had an early morning staff meeting slated for 7am, i was late by over 20 minutes and he scolded me right in the presence of everyone, it felt like there was an anger to it, ( “What??, is this guy fucking kidding me?? What the fuck is this??”) even my colleagues were asking me what i did wrong to him later on.
If there is anything I hate, its mind games, i detest it with a passion. I get utterly bored and done with men who fuck with your mind, if you want to fuck only, say i just want to fuck, if i like you well enough, we’d fuck. Not that, you’d act like you want something serious and then play silly children games. Right then and there, I was done with his shit, no need wondering or thinking about what i did, that was so wrong. Adults discuss issues, we dont become petty and stump our feet for attention. fuck this shii. Who the hell does he think he is? ***************
Friday, I got to work early, faced my job, put my best face forward, When i needed him to sign documents, i knocked on his door, addressed him in a polite formal manner, when he signed, I didn’t linger. I walked right out.
I’m not cut out for power tussles, I’m a lover, not a fighter. I avoid confrontations at all costs. If he was playing mind games, or power drags, I wanted him to know he was playing alone. I hate toxic situations.
And we continued this charade for another 2 weeks
It has been 2 weeks, since John started his BS, I wasn’t having none of it. I know exactly how to care for a man but if he starts displaying some shitty attitude, I quickly exit.
John must have noticed my disinterest, I did everything he said to the letter, even when he seemed like he was out to punish me, i would smile and say Yes Sir.
He got more frustrated, I was pellucid, I let everything roll off my back, Pain would do that to you, I guess. In my head, i thought, you haven’t even done half of what Chief did and you want to stress me, aren’t you a joker?
It was a friday, John had come with his usual bellowing of instructions, he instructed i come in on Saturday to do some work. I didn’t think too much of it.
On Saturday, I was at the bank, i had just parked, when i saw John standing at the passenger side of my car, he motioned for me to open the door and I did.
He entered the car and said “Drive”…….. “Where to, Sir” – I asked “Just Drive” – He repeated, this time more fiercely.
I started the car engine and drove out of the bank, he kept directing me with a straight face “Turn Left” “go straight ahead” “keep to the right” “Now go right”
Till we got to a popular hotel on the island.
I put off the car and we walked in, i thought we were probably meeting with a prospective vip client.
John came down from the car, waited for me to do the same and we walked in together, We went to the VIP section of the bar and he ordered a bottle of wine for me and shots of henny for himself.
I was keeping an eye out for the client, John had relaxed into his chair, staring at me. I kept a reasonable distance from him, I didn’t want any problem “come sit here” – He said and pointed to the couch he was on.
I looked at him, unsure if obeying him was the right decision.
I got up, sat close to him and i looked at him “who are we here to meet sir” – I asked
He was silent, no response “What are we here to do, I am asking so i could do a little research before the person arrives, so i am not sitting like a bimbo when the discussion start”
He was silent, No response
Just staring at me, innately… I stared back, looking into his soul.
As i stared at him, John grabbed my head, kissing me deeply, his lips probing mine, trying to find my tongue, I didn’t kiss back……. at first, but gawd, his lips… Oh his lips were so soft, he was kissing me slowly yet fiercely… I missed kissing… Dear Lawd, was kissing ever this good?? More than a year had passed and I’ve not had a man touch me, I didn’t know i wanted to be touched. Did i want this touch though? I was disoriented, John was a great kisser, he was practically licking my mouth, breathing heavily on my face, passion seeping through every kiss, he wanted me, i could see that.
I kissed back, my hands at my side, afraid of touching him, too stunned to move. I kissed him, slowly matching his tempo.. It was prepossessing, graceful. John was a good kisser.
Suddenly, i felt this rush of anger, i stopped, pushed him away. I was mad. “I’m sorry Ada, I really am” – John said.
Hmmmm, Sorry you say- I replied “i was having a difficult time, i cant put it in words, i couldn’t…. ” – He said
I was livid, Fuck you, Fuck your feelings, Fuck your difficult times… – I said, whispering, afraid that if i said it in my normal voice, I would be screaming.
I hated him, he fucked with my mind, i started blaming myself, I felt I was cursed. Why all the men in my life suddenly disappear, first Alex, then chief, then him and here he was telling me it was just a simple case of him having “a difficult time” I wanted to cry, but I held myself, i couldn’t be weak.
I’m sorry its all i can say ada, my feelings for you came hard and fast, I was afraid of been in a bad spot, i was scared you would reject me. I am sorry” – John said
The tears were welling up in my eyes,
I looked at him directly in his eyes… “And fear only leads to hate, thats basic school knowledge, you of all people should know this” – I said
He mouthed “I am Sorry”
I couldn’t hold back the tears, it came free falling… John hugged me…
He dried my tears, raised my head up and kissed me deeply. I kissed back.. He had fanned my embers, i wanted him…… Badly
I looked at him, grabbed his head, whispered into his ears.. “kiss me”
He smiled and kissed me, giving me all of him, he held my face, running his hands through my neck, kissing me.. A couple walked in, saw us in our heated state and turned back almost immediately.
We stopped, laughed and then we continued. We didn’t care, we were free, our fires burning. I looked at him and i wanted::
His head buried in my pussy, eating, licking, kissing it, making me drip and then licking everything up.
His lips dropping sweet kisses all over my body
I wanted to pour the honey i had at home all over my body and make him lick it all up
He was sexy, he was hot, this tshirt he was wearing was doing justice to all his pecks. I loved what i was seeing. I bit his lower lip gently, he looked at me. “I’ll do anything you want Ada” – he said, his eyes were pleading “I know you will” – I said, kissing him again
I had a chug from my glass of wine, enjoying the feel, nothing like kissing and wine. I remembered how much i loved kissing.. John looked at me while i chugged down the wine, he held my hand, kissed me again. “Lets go, I said… I want to spend more time with you, please let me have 15 minutes more” – John replied, he sounded like a kid. “and who told you where we are headed, we’d be apart” i said, looking at him
I’m going to snatch your soul tonight, call me the grim reaper”- i continued, smiling ☺
John’s eyes lit up, he was excited (#Soulsnatching is a slang for dick sucking, where you don’t stop even after the guy cums, he can cum on your face, but you put that dick back immediately in your mouth and keep sucking, till you swallow whats left of the cum)
John paid the bill and we left the bar.
I was horny, so I touched his dick as i drove. “I will drop you at home, then go home to pick up a few things” – I said “Ok babe” he replied
I dropped John at home, and i went home.
I was dripping… But i needed to get my honey.. I wasn’t going to make this any easy for john.. He would put his back into it.
I got home, went to the bathroom, shaved off all the hairs on my body.
(bite me, I wasn’t getting laid so i didn’t bother)
I put on some light music, i was dancing while i showered. I took my time, emasculating myself in my bath gels.
I washed every part of me until i could hear that squeaky sound 😚. I am very clean, but tonight is the first night I’ve wanted anyone after chief coker and i wanted it to be perfect.
I turned off the shower and came out to my bedroom.
I applied some cologne on my skin and started my makeup, my left eyebrow didn’t match the right.
Naaa, fuck this; tonight is the night according to John Legend, everything must be on fleek.
I grabbed a wipe, cleaned both of them up and re-drew them again, It was perfect now. I applied my eyeshadow, drawing my eyeliner to the perfect wing.
For Lipstain i chose Red, red has been known to incite passion.
I got up, found my red bodysuit with cross straps and i put it on. Looking at myself in the mirror, i looked beautiful, the red lips on red clothing combo worked perfectly.
I got a text from John, it reads “I can’t wait to see you Beautiful”
I smiled and replied “you mean eat me right”
He replied with a big smiley emoji “😊 and that too..” My pussy was dripping, ohh fuck, i cannot ruin this bodysuit, i grabbed a wipe and cleaned my p**sy
I continued my makeup at my dressing mirror
The euphoria of what’s to come hit me, it made more juice drip from my pussy, i took off the body suit and grabbed a towel and sat on it while i applied my highlighter and contour. I wasn’t about to mess up the bodysuit with pussy wetness.
I completed my makeup, went to the bathroom, washed and dried my p***y, then i put back on my bodysuit.
I heard a knock on the door (#inmyhead I’m going out o, whoever this is, just go away)
I didn’t respond, I felt it was Musa my gateman, when I’m going out, he will tell me whatever he has to say.
The knock persisted, i went to the door, looked through the peephole, it was musa (what does he want again now) I opened the door, there was someone standing beside Musa, my jaw dropped “Hi Adanne, I heard what happened, I came to pay my condolence”
It was Alex
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