Dear Ada, of recent my husband has been acting weird, He doesn’t hug me or kiss me or give any affection during the day, but in the evening whenever he sees fit, he will try to use me as his sex object. He also has PE and sex is barely satisfying , i bought the prolong for him but how do i even tell him to use it when we are barely experiencing any passion. I don’t get anything out of ilthe sex because my head isn’t in it. Finally, it just started to make me sick. If he can’t be intimate and loving during the day and only wants me at night. I get nothing out of that either, what’s the point? For the last month, I have been sick to my stomach. I wake up, and he has it on my backside, so I slap it off. I come in the room at night, and he is there with it hanging You would think he would know it’s only making me turned off more.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Then last night went too far. I think it’s been four days actually since I let him “use me” to get off. He was trying again; I say you are not into me any other time, so you aren’t going to use me. I have a huge body pillow so I just held it and slept, immediately he got on top of me and started kissing me and aggressively smelling me and rubbing his dick against me and I kept yelling at him to get off of me. It was giving me flashbacks to being raped before.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I kept pushing his head back and kicking him. I kept leaning to the edge of the bed so that he would fall off, but he kept pinning me down, and I started crying, and he wouldn’t stop finally I scratched his face and got my leg out enough to kick him and that got him off then he got angry and asked what my problem was, before slapping me and hitting me in the nose. I just said you knew I wanted nothing sexual and you want to force it and rape me. He just got up and left the house all through today, I have not seen him.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I feel so violated even though he’s my husband and I don’t know why I feel that way.
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